I Forgot

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 I know everything that I can do to be healthy, but lately I forgot. I forgot how good it feels to live in the moment rather than next week. I forgot how healing it is to be a healer for someone else. I forgot the need that writing fulfills in me. I'm not struggling, just forgetful. I'm not more sad now, I just forgot my happiness at home. I'm not lonely I just forgot that I have friends. I'm not really lost, I just sometimes forget where I am. I have my purpose, but just briefly forgot who I am. My prayer life isn't dried up, I just forgot how good it is to talk to Him. I know everything I need to live well again, recently I just forgot.

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